Sometime it is so hard to do the right thing. I know what needs to be done and what should be done, but sometimes my natural man tries to take over and if I am not careful I not only succumb, I jump feet first on the band wagon. I do want to do the things that will make my Savior proud of me but when the cold cruel world keeps taking cheap shots at the people that mean the very most in the world to me, My Family, I have to keep breathing deeply to gain control.
My one and only darling daughter, who I have been greatly blessed to have as a friend, has had a very emotionally trying experience in the past two weeks. She has been battered and spit upon (figuratively speaking) and even when the situation should be put to rest, there are those that continue to pour salt by the gallons into her wounds. The mother bear in me starts seeing red and I can feel the blood of righteous indignation surging through my veins until I think that they will pop.
Can anyone out there explain to me WHY people go out of their way to destroy another human being? What could possibly be in it for them. Don't they realize that the dark one who is whispering in their ear so constantly to go for blood, is a liar. There will be no good come to those that choose to hurt, maim and destroy another spirit.
I know that this is not a very pleasant blog but my heart is aching and broken for my daughter as I can do nothing but preach patience, kindness and understanding all the while trying to control my own tendencies for revenge.
It is moments like this when I feel the weight of my Saviors atoning sacrifice, the blessing from it are mine for the taking but only if I do that which proves me a worthy recipient. I also feel the grief that he suffered that my daughter now is feeling as she tries to overcome her own feelings of pain. He suffered so that he knows how to comfort her wounded soul.
Maybe I have just answered my own question, maybe just maybe we are allowed to suffer at the hands of others so that we can have a greater need and appreciation for that which can save us, if we let it.